Something is definitely not right. If this is a year ago,
why am I living in this flat? Why do I own clothes that I
bought just recently? Confused, I crumble a piece of bread
while I wait for Natalie at Cecconiís. When the door opens I
look up and freeze: thereís Natalie talking to the waiter,
but sheís not alone. Clustered around her are Will, Finn
andÖ Cassius. Why on earth is he here? Iím expecting to see
Rose coming in next, but heís obviously alone. The four of
them are talking and laughing as they approach me.
ďLivia, good to see you!Ē Natalie kisses me on both cheeks.
Finn does the same, then Will and, no, it canít be! Cassius
bends down, his lips are brushing mine. Just as well Iím
sitting down, otherwise my legs would have given way. They
take their seats around the table, Cassius beside me,
putting his arm around me as a matter of course. What the
hellís going on?
ďHave you finally decided on giving up your flat and moving
in with me again?Ē he asks me, smiling. My mouth drops open.
Iíve dreamed about this scene countless times and now itís
real. But what about Rose?
The four of them are staring at me, and I realise that Iíve
spoken out loud. Natalie looks at me as if I werenít right
in the head. ďBut Rose has been gone for ages!Ē she says,
shaking her head at me.
Eamon?Ē I ask in a small voice.
Will starts to giggle. ďLivia, whatís wrong with you?Ē he
guffaws. ďFirst you call Natalie in the middle of the night
and now youíre asking questions as if you canít remember the
last few weeks!Ē Well, heís right, isnít he? Thatís the
problem really, I donít know what has happened. Everything
seems to be upside down. I mean, it appears to be perfect.
Cassius and I are a couple again, as I always secretly
wished. Suddenly I remember Eamonís words: You donít know
what youíre doing! I thought I did, but now Iím not so sure